“I asked the Lord to give me this boy, and he has granted my request. Now I am giving him to the Lord, and he will belong to the Lord his whole life.”
– Hannah, Mother of the Prophet Samuel ( 1 Sam. 1 :27-28)
A few days ago I read these words for the first time since Azaiah died. They pierced me. How did she do it? After a season of infertility, how could she let go of the son she was so desperate for?
What about Jochebed, mother of Moses? She put her infant son in a basket and let go.
What about Mary, the mother of our Lord, who let go and watched her son go to the cross?
How did these women do it? How did they let go? How can I?
Understand I Must
I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead. Phil. 3:13
If I want to heal, I cannot torture myself with all the “What- if’s” and the “If -only’s.” Those questions never bring peace. I have to set my eyes to the day before me and not all of the painful questions that are behind me.
God has come to save me. I will trust in him and not be afraid. Is. 12:2
I believe Hannah, Jochebed and Mary did not know what was coming. They were not given a special revelation to see the future. They just knew that the God that they released their sons to was a trustworthy God. They believed that their relinquishment would be met with complete provision.
As real as the hurt is, it is really not about this world.
I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us. Phil. 3:14
I was made for fellowship with God. I was made for Heaven. My son is there now and so is my Savior. So I am pressing on until I get to the end of this race and wrap my arms around them both.