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He Lives For Kids!

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Mom, pregnant with Azaiah, and his big brother and big sisters

As I stripped the clothes of my son’s body to see if there were any signs of life, my eyes connected with both of my oldest daughters, ages 7 and 9. They were kneeling on the ground, screaming and crying out with me. My twelve-year-old son had to take charge of the house, calling his father and directing the paramedics to our place. My youngest daughters watched fearfully.

This moment changed the fabric of who they are. They watched their brother die.  I hate that. I despise that moment.

I hate it because death hurts. Death scars us. Death mutilates us. Death is a curse. It is a curse that we suffer because we, as mankind, chose evil over the goodness of a holy God. I hate that.

So what do I do for my kids? In this season of our lives we have cried with them, prayed with them, held them. We have encouraged them to share memories, write in journals, paint pictures or yell and scream. Whatever they need to do. Our four year-old has a bag of notes that she writes to Azaiah throughout the day. Our seven year-old daughter wrote him a song.

We may have been stung by the consequences evil, but evil is not undefeated.  The truth is evil can be conquered. It will be conquered by doing good.

Don’t let evil conquer you, but conquer evil by doing good. Romans 12:21

And there God placed us. Asking us to do something good. We will heal, not by blaming God, not by suffocating in our walls of sorrow or by numbing our grief. We will overcome by immersing ourselves in the pain of death and serving other children who have also lost a brother or sister. We will reach out our hearts to these children and send care packages. I like to call them love in box.

Our nine year-old daughter had the name HE LIVES placed on her heart. Yes, Jesus lives. The one who conquered death himself.  And so the ministry, He Lives for Kids, was born.

He isn’t here! He is risen from the dead, just as he said would happen. Come, see where his body was lying. Matthew 28:6

When he died, he died once to break the power of sin. But now that he lives, he lives for the glory of God. Romans 6:10

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Feb 18, 2013Serena
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  1. Chris
    10 years ago

    I’ve been reading your posts with interest and amazement. Your perserverance, faith, and strength during such a difficult time is incredible. I also love how you are making something good come out of your loss by helping others.

    I’m wondering how you got this kind of outlook. As I endure a potentially life threatening disease, fully aware that this might take me away from my children, leaving them to grow up without a mother, I’ve been dealing with some difficult feelings. Its hard for me to know that God could stop this but chooses not to. That God has the ability to change the amount of suffering me and my family are going through, but has not. It doesn’t seem like you have gone through those feelings, and I’m wondering if you’d share why that is, or any perspective you may have on that. I would love to learn more on how to have your outlook during times of suffering and grief.

    Much sympathy to you and your family.

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    • Serena
      10 years ago

      I’ve been sitting on this question today. I guess this outlook grew out of the past 20 yrs of walking with God, sometimes doing it his way, sometimes doing it my way. When I do it my way the road is full of hurt that only gets worse. I hurt now. But the hurt isn’t without hope that there are better things coming.

      Today as I prayed, I addressed God for the first time as my Daddy. I have always identified him as my Father in a provider, protective and stern way. But I’ve never felt like he was my Daddy. Today I trust him as my Daddy who wants what is best for me every single time. He knows what is best for me eternally and will work that out for me every time because I am his Beloved.

      You are his. You are his most precious. You are his daughter. He delights in you. He will work out what is best for you every single time, even when it hurts. Even when it doesn’t look like what we want it to, he always has our best interest at heart.

      For me it is a matter of trusting what I have always said that I believed God to be- good, loving, sovereign, just, faithful… This is my moment to believe it and live it.

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    • Sandi Rog
      10 years ago

      Sweet Chris.

      I couldn’t help but notice your comment above about what you’re going through. I just wanted to share that I recently underwent a two year battle with cancer. I had the same feelings you described above. What helped me get through this is remembering that this world is temporary and it’s not our home. I have four children, and I had to explain to them that what we were going through was something we could either use for good or bad. Satan would want us to quit, to give up. But if we keep the faith during this struggle, no matter what happens, then they will have their reward in heaven.

      It terrified me to leave my kids behind. I begged God to take care of them if He meant to take me from them. I begged Him to find someone who would LOVE them. I also kind of made a “deal.” I basically said, “If it’s Your plan to take me from my kids, then You will have to take care of them as well or better than I would have if I am not allowed to live.”

      I felt I could relate to Abraham and Hannah when they each had to “give away” one of their children. I visualized my children being lifted up to God and into His hands. And I had to TRUST that He would take care of them without me. What better hands could they be in? After all, I knew He loved them just as much as He loved me, and He wouldn’t want them to fall away.

      Just remember, HE IS HERE. Just like Serena said, He is your Daddy, and he cares about every detail of your life. As much as you love your children, He loves them more. Remember that, and trust in Him. Pray to Him. Tell Him your every concern. He LOVES you, even though He feels so far away, He isn’t far away. Satan will have you believe He’s not here, but don’t believe his lies.

      A verse that helped get me through a low point while I was in the hospital was Isaiah 43: 1-3

      “…Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior…”

      Love,

      Sandi xxx

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Serena
10 years ago 3 Comments Christian Life, Death and Dying, Kids, Matters of the Heart, Motherhood, Parentingdealing with death, grief, serving others436
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