Yesterday I started recapping the message from our Saturday’s women’s conference Finding Purpose In The Pain.
After I recognized my fear of God, I realized that night that this is my moment. In sixteen years of ministry we have walked the steps of tragedy with many other families. I have walked beside other families that have dealt with chronic illness, divorce and death. I have seen others rise and fall in their moment of tragedy.
I was not surprised when tragedy came to me. I wasn’t surprised when Azaiah died. I knew it was just my turn.
Jesus said, “In the world you will have tribulation.” John 16:33
I closed out 2012 saying that it had been one of the most challenging years of our lives, but I would face 2013 and walk through the valley again if he asked me to. I had no idea what I pledged my heart to. But the pledge was made. It was my moment.
In that moment, three words repeated in my head over and over. God is good. GOD IS GOOD. GOD IS GOOD!
God is still good. He is sovereign. He is power. He is love. He is redemption. And I am his.
When I was riding in the ambulance I remember thinking it’s going to be alright. No matter what. In that ambulance, riding with the lifeless body of my son in the back, God gave me a flash of what Azaiah was seeing. I knew he was OK. I felt peace.
God is good… And I am his.
Never underestimate your position as a child of the Most High. You are purchased with the blood of deity. You are protected my the King of All Kings.
If you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly father give good gifts to those who ask him. Mt. 7:11
Through the trials of the past year I know I have wanted to shield my children. I have wanted to help them grieve. I have spent sleepless night holding them. I have wiped tears. How much more my Father does for me!
God is good. I am his. God is good. God is still good. And you are his.