“I believe; help my unbelief!” Mk. 9:24
Since losing my son, a door has been opened to a world of grieving mothers. I know so many of us struggle with doubt. We want to love God. We want to believe God. We want to trust God, but sometimes it is just hard.
I want to share this with you. It was written by a friend of mine who lost her son. Two years later she lost another son.
Faith Mixed With Doubt
When my son, Spencer was killed in a car accident, my heart broke. I’m ashamed to admit it, but when life’s circumstances hurt so much, my faith is often mixed with doubt. I cried out to God with these questions:
Lord, I sure don’t understand You. Why did You allow this death?
“Have you not heard? And he said to me: The everlasting God . . . neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable” (Isa. 40:28).
“My thoughts are not Your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways” (Isa. 55:8).
Lord, You are beyond my understanding. But I still wonder, have You turned Your back on the world?
And he said to me : “God sits on His holy throne” (Ps. 47:8) and “rules by His power forever” (Ps.66:7).
Lord, I do believe You are ruling this world, but do You care about the pain? Have You forgotten to be good?
And he said to me: I am “good and ready to forgive, and abundant in mercy to all those who call upon [Me]” (Ps. 86:5).
Yes, Lord, You have been good to me in countless ways, including listening to my doubts and questions about You.
The answers God gives us in His Word may not take away our sadness, but we can always rest in the truth that He is
Wise
Sovereign and
Good.
Every loss leaves an empty space that only God’s presence can fill.
Kim
Does God tolerate our unbelief? He doesn’t just tolerate it, he answers it. Whatever your doubt is, whatever you are carrying, whatever questions you are wrestling with, let him be the answer today.
Thank you Kim for showing us how.
