I Feel So Alone

…for I am alone and in deep distress. Psalm 25:16

Alone. I am alone. No one understands me. I have no one to talk to. No body gets what I’m going through.

This is probably my biggest struggle. When there is conflict in my marriage, my family or my church I am immediately struck with the feeling “I am all alone.”  My feelings of loneliness make me want to just runaway from it all. I feel defeated. I feel hopeless. I feel like my work is ineffective and pointless.

I also see that this is just where the enemy wants me. He wants us to feel trapped, alone, and defeated. That’s just how he wanted Elisha and his servant to feel in 2 Kings 6. This Old Testament story invigorates me press through the loneliness and see what is really going on.

The king of Aram was at war with Israel, he would confer with his officers and say, “We will mobilize our forces at such and such a place.”

But immediately Elisha, the man of God, would warn the king of Israel, “Do not go near that place, for the Arameans are planning to mobilize their troops there.” So the king of Israel would send word to the place indicated by the man of God. Time and again Elisha warned the king, so that he would be on the alert there.

The king of Aram became very upset over this. He called his officers together and demanded, “Which of you is the traitor? Who has been informing the king of Israel of my plans?” “It’s not us, my lord the king,” one of the officers replied. “Elisha, the prophet in Israel, tells the king of Israel even the words you speak in the privacy of your bedroom!”

“Go and find out where he is,” the king commanded, “so I can send troops to seize him.”

And the report came back: “Elisha is at Dothan.” So one night the king of Aram sent a great army with many chariots and horses to surround the city.

When the servant of the man of God got up early the next morning and went outside, there were troops, horses, and chariots everywhere. “Oh, sir, what will we do now?” the young man cried to Elisha.

“Don’t be afraid!” Elisha told him. “For there are more on our side than on theirs!” Then Elisha prayed, “O Lord, open his eyes and let him see!” The Lord opened the young man’s eyes, and when he looked up, he saw that the hillside around Elisha was filled with horses and chariots of fire.

That is my prayer for all of us who are struggling with feeling alone. Don’t be afraid. O, Lord open our eyes and let us see the host of  heavenly armies that you have sent to fight before us and to minister to us. You have provided all we need. I am overwhelmed by that truth. As the thought of your love and provisions wash over me today I must thank you Father for never really leaving us alone.

Therefore, angels are only servants—spirits sent to care for people who will inherit salvation. Heb. 1:14

Comments

  1. This is probably my biggest struggle. Thank you so much for posting this… Glad to know I’m not the only one!

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