So I have a tendency to withdraw from people when I hurt. I tend to crawl into my hole, leaving those outside feeling isolated, especially my husband.
I suppose God tucked away this little verse in Genesis 24:67 for me. When Isaac was grieving the loss of his mother he married Rebekah. He loved her deeply. She was a special comfort to him.
I love this because during Isaac’s time of grief he allowed God to comfort him through the covenant of marriage and hands of his wife. In my grief there are moments that marriage is abrasive to me. There are moments when I don’t want to let my husband in. There are even moments I think I would rather be alone.
But what I have forgotten is that God can still use marriage for me like he did for Isaac if I only let him. I can wall myself off in my pain or I can reach out. I can speak my hurt and allow the arms my husband to be my strength or I can maintain barriers and let it all fall apart.
I have a choice, keep him out or be vulnerable… to tough it out alone, or dig deep into our marriage and let God dwell there. Today I have made the choice to let God dwell there.
Jesus knew their thoughts and said to them, “Every kingdom divided against itself will be ruined, and every city or household divided against itself will not stand.” Matthew 12:25